Migraine Level
On this day in My History
June 9, 2021 - I took today as a self-care day. Soaked in a hot bath, wrote in my journal here. Did little else. It's amazing how fast the day goes when you're doing nothing. It is 3am as I finish writing this. I'm up way too late again. Migraine hasn't been too bad today. About a 5/6 for most of the day.
Matt was out when I woke at about 1pm. It was raining and I saw no sign of where he might be. I had just decided that Cait (his daughter) must have picked him up to go shopping or discuss details about the new house, when he came in the door. He had been out for a walk in the rain. Now, as I mentioned yesterday, this is not atypical of Matt. He prefers to walk places and is usually unbothered by a bit of weather.
This on top of yesterday though, I just had to ask if everything was okay. Yes. Matt's voice reveals impatience and annoyance at my asking. He hates it when I fuss. "In the rain?" Yes, his cheque had come in the mail and he walked up to the bank to deposit it. He also got his second vaccine shot for Covid-19 at the drug store (yay!).
Asking actually doesn't mean much, but it's all I've got. I asked my Ex all the time if everything was okay. He always said yes. Even though my empathic senses told me he was feeling otherwise, I could only take him at his word. That was before I knew that his word had no meaning.
Matt has never lied to me, of course that I know of. I don't want to live in distrust, and I made the choice when I started dating that I was all-in with an open heart. It's the only way I can be. Still, the past is haunting. And against my will, is disturbing me again. It's exhausting and I feel like crying all the time. I have made a counselling appointment for Monday morning. I just have to make it through to then.
June 9, 2020 - Elizabeth Jacques is born. My BFF's first grandchild!
June 9, 2021 - I took today as a self-care day. Soaked in a hot bath, wrote in my journal here. Did little else. It's amazing how fast the day goes when you're doing nothing. It is 3am as I finish writing this. I'm up way too late again. Migraine hasn't been too bad today. About a 5/6 for most of the day.
Matt was out when I woke at about 1pm. It was raining and I saw no sign of where he might be. I had just decided that Cait (his daughter) must have picked him up to go shopping or discuss details about the new house, when he came in the door. He had been out for a walk in the rain. Now, as I mentioned yesterday, this is not atypical of Matt. He prefers to walk places and is usually unbothered by a bit of weather.
This on top of yesterday though, I just had to ask if everything was okay. Yes. Matt's voice reveals impatience and annoyance at my asking. He hates it when I fuss. "In the rain?" Yes, his cheque had come in the mail and he walked up to the bank to deposit it. He also got his second vaccine shot for Covid-19 at the drug store (yay!).
Asking actually doesn't mean much, but it's all I've got. I asked my Ex all the time if everything was okay. He always said yes. Even though my empathic senses told me he was feeling otherwise, I could only take him at his word. That was before I knew that his word had no meaning.
Matt has never lied to me, of course that I know of. I don't want to live in distrust, and I made the choice when I started dating that I was all-in with an open heart. It's the only way I can be. Still, the past is haunting. And against my will, is disturbing me again. It's exhausting and I feel like crying all the time. I have made a counselling appointment for Monday morning. I just have to make it through to then.
June 9, 2020 - Elizabeth Jacques is born. My BFF's first grandchild!
Historical Events of June 9th
- June 9, 1534 - Jacques Cartier sails into the mouth of the St. Lawrence River, looking for gold and a northwest passage to the Orient; names the river for St. Lawrence on his feast day. Québec, Canada
- 1549 Book of Common Prayer is adopted by the Church of England
- June 9, 1537 - Religion - Pope Paul III declares in his encyclical Veros homines that Indians are "truly men", beings with the qualities and faults of other humans; they should not be enslaved, and should receive the Roman Catholic faith. Rome, Italy [Mighty white of him.]
- June 9, 1775 - American Revolutionary War - Guy Carleton proclaims martial law and calls out militia to augment 800 British regular troops; suspends administration of the Québec Act to meet the American invasion. Québec, Canada
- June 9, 1793 - Upper Canada Assembly passes law prohibiting the importation of slaves into Upper Canada. Niagara-on-the-Lake, Ontario
- June 9, 1813 - War of 1812 - American troops abandon Fort Erie after their defeat at Stony Creek; the British and Canadians will reoccupy the fort after American withdrawal from the area in December 1813. Fort Erie, Ontario
- June 9, 1814 - War of 1812 - Upper Canada Judges Thomas Scott, William Powell and William Campbell sentence eight Americans and Canadian "renegade settler" sympathizers to be hanged for treason and spying in the Bloody Assize at Ancaster; only one settler, Aaron Stevens, pleaded guilty, for passing information about British troop movements, to US General Boyd; the eight are hanged on July 20; seven others are spared and sent to Kingston to be deported. Hamilton, Ontario
- June 9, 1841 - Lord Sydenham appoints Legislative Council of Canada with 24 members; holds its first meeting on June 11, 1841. Kingston, Ontario
- June 9, 1866 - British Army soldier Timothy O'Hea enters a burning Grand Trunk Railway boxcar enroute to Fort Erie, rips the lids from munition boxes, and douses the flames with buckets of water; for saving the lives of his fellow soldiers and 800 German immigrants in converted boxcars, the 20 year old Irish Private will become the only person to earn the Victoria Cross for an act of valour In Canada, on January 7, 1867. Danville, Québec
- June 9, 1846 - Fire destroys the wharves and 2,000 houses in St. John's, leaving nearly 12,000 people homeless. St. John's, Newfoundland
- June 9, 2011 - British Columbia government renames a stretch of the Trans-Canada Highway between Langley and Abbotsford to "The Highway of Heroes" to honour the 13 BC soldiers who lost their lives in Afghanistan. Victoria, BC
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